Thursday, August 18, 2011

August 19th, 2011. On the Edge,

Dear Cambridge,

It has been been an amazing 6 weeks. I will miss you.

Goodbye UK, Hello USA.

Cheers,

Allie

The Last Night

It is here. Tonight is my final night in Cambridge and I'm getting ready to go to the closing gala. I really have nothing more to say. I had my final Shakespeare class and the rest of the day was a blur. I had such an adventure discovering a new routine and way of life and happy as I am to go home, I'm truly going to miss Cambridge. I hope someday I can come back and reminisce in my weeks spent studying here. I'll miss this so much.

Cheers.

Wednesday, August 17, 2011

It's Been a Long Time Coming

Today was the last day of my broken record routine writing! I actually have more to say today than, "Hey, I did some reading and writing today." I'm glad for all of you reading though, I feel bad for boring you with monotonous papers and Shakespeare and monarchs. Instead, I'll inform you briefly of the killer exam I endured today. For my history exam, I had two hours to write three essays. I wrote one about the ways Mary QS was a successful monarch, one about why Oliver Cromwell's Protectorate failed and did a source analysis on documents from Charles I's reign detailing the portrayal of a monarch after his death. All of these topics I didn't have until I opened the exam booklet at the beginning of class. Good thing I did my reading. Now that I am finished my hands feel like jelly from the feverish writing. Hopefully when I get the exam back (11am tomorrow, wow!) I'll feel the much wanted happiness of completion and a job well done.

I am currently just one Shakespeare presentation away from academic freedom! I have a bit of time between tea and dinner so I'll work a bit and have this puppy wrapped up by morning. Its exciting and sad all at once to know its almost over. It seems like I got here yesterday, as cliche as that sounds. Its true though, I've grown accustomed to walking the courtyards of Caius and busy streets of Cambridge, being assaulted my punters and visiting the market for bread. Enough of that wishy washy stuff! Tonight I'll have fun with the group in honor of the end of the exams. Or I'll just go to bed at 9 because I'm brain dead. Either way, tomorrow is final class, banquet and packing up to be out by noon on Friday and back to the good old USA. My, how time flies.

Cheers.

Tuesday, August 16, 2011

Silent Films and Old Books

I feel like overly redundant this week. Reading, writing, Shakespeare, history. Reading, writing, Shakespeare, history. Again, again, again. I guess that's finals week for you though. Today was more of the same, except I passed in my final essay of the term in Shakespeare class today. I loved writing on the topic (Shakespeare's representation of marriage) and am anxious for the results this Thursday.

In our last formal Shakespeare class, we discussed the production of Midsummer from the RSC last Thursday. Also, we watched the first video recorded Shakespeare (King John) which was an astounding 3 minutes long. We watched the silent film, black and white Midsummer from the 1890s and listened to a wide range of music from the Willow Song Desdemona sings in Othello to the rock musical Rockaby Hamlet from the 1970s.

After class and tea I went on a basically private through the Caius library. I was able to see, touch and photograph a Bible formally owned by William III better known as William of Orange. I geeked out for a bit seeing items owned by English Monarchy, which just blows my mind.

I'm back in the library again (surprise!)to finish up my reading for the history exam tomorrow. Mary QS is done and now its either Victoria or Oliver Cromwell, both of which need less since they are fresher in my mind. I'm having an inner dilemma- I went the finals to be done, but when they are done I leave. Oh the dichotomy!

Until then, read read read! Cheers.

Monday, August 15, 2011

Evaluation Monday

Last Monday in Cambridge! Today began my last week of classes with the final History class focusing on Queen Victoria and her reign as queen. At the end of class to evaluate how much we retained, we were presented with the same 25 events in history that we were given on the first day and had to put them in order once again. We did much better this time than last, which was just great.

After class we had a more formal tea time in Hall where we were served scones to make us happy before we filled out evaluations for the program and each of our classes. it was a nice time to reflect on what we did and learned here and also to offer suggestions for future programs.

Then I had my final High Table which my Dad was able to join(its custom for visiting parents to have one High Table when they are in Cambridge). We had salmon again, of course, so the meal wasn't my favorite but I had a nice chat with Professor Merton and Lisa and even Gail a bit. Overall, my last High Table was a nice time.

I am now back in the library once more to finish up Shakespeare and doing some reading on Mary QS. Final essay due tomorrow, feeling good and ready to hand it in.

Until next time,

Cheers.

Sunday, August 14, 2011

The Punter and the Puntee

Hey all,

Today was a successful final Sunday in Cambridge. After breakfast I spent the morning working on my Shakespeare final essay. The prompt I chose is "consider Shakespeare's representation of the institution of marriage" and I am loving writing about this paper.I have a full working draft and a day and a half to edit it. Its neat to compare elements from three different plays and see the overlap. I've enjoyed this class very much and am kind of sad I only have two classes left. At least we get to discuss Midsummer which we saw last Thursday. Going out with a bang.

Later in the afternoon, Caiti, Sarah, Julia, Dad and I finally went punting! We've put it off for far too long and it was nice to succumb and be a tourist. The punting business in general is sketchy to say the least. After being assaulted on the streets for weeks it was odd to finally respond with "yes please, I'd love a tour" rather than "no" and rushing away. It was a nice warm day and although our guide mumbled and was a tad under enthused I still had fun with the girls, and Dad. Pictures to come soon:)

After punting Dad and I walking around town a bit, scoping fun things for him to do while I have class and finals work tomorrow. We went around some of the big colleges, the Fitzwilliam perhaps and a bus tour for sure. He'll have a nice day while I'm stuck writing and writing for the afternoon. Anyway, after punting I skipped out on Hall and Dad and I went to the Eagle for some fantastic fish and chips. Yes, I ordered fish in a restaurant and then ate it. Shock and awe. It was nice to sit in a pub in England with my Dad, eating fish and chips and sipping a shandy. Good night.

I am currently blogging from the library because I am between edits and heading back to Shakespeare momentarily. We have our usual table taken over for a nice night of homework. I'm actually going to miss this quite a lot. Somehow, Dimond library just isn't the same. But nonetheless, my last weekend at Caius was top notch all around and I have had good fun and am ready for finals. Stay tuned tomorrow to hear about my final High Table to which my Dad is attending. Until then,

Cheers.

Saturday, August 13, 2011

Pretend today is Saturday

Hey all,

Sorry for the lack of post yesterday. Lapwing (my wireless) decided not to work all day so I was unable to post. Lets just pretend today is Saturday and here is the post I had already written up. Cheers.

"It has happened. Today is my last Saturday in Cambridge. Its odd to think that I've been away for almost 6 weeks, even more odd to think I haven't touched a cell phone in over a month. Its a rather liberating feeling actually to be apart from it. I mean, I have had my computer this time away, but when I'm out and about its completely unhindered by technology.

Since this is the final hooray weekend, I'll be partying in style. And by partying in style I mean working on two Shakespeare essays and reviewing a couple hundred years of English and Scottish history. Go crazy. I will try and make some time for fun. Last night was the talent show and then karaoke and today maybe we'll finally go punting. Either way, its a homework day in preparation for finals week."

Friday, August 12, 2011

So much Talent

Hey all,

I'm rather tired and my bed is calling so here is an overview of my final full Friday in England. I slept in today which was marvelous, getting myself ready for the weekend. After that it was Shakespeare all afternoon, switching from final essay to final presentation. I'm excited about my finals and have a nice weekend to get most of the work finished before my final week of classes! Tonight was fun with the UNH Cambridge Summer Program Pizza Party and Talent Show. Turns out that there are a lot of talented people on this trip. We ended the night with some karaoke. Now that I've seen my friends and professors sing, together and apart, my life is that much happier. Tomorrow is much of the same- homework day and fun time in the evening.

Until then, Cheers.

Thursday, August 11, 2011

Alack! A Midsummer Night at the RSC Theater

Hello hello,

It is 1am and I just got back from my second play in Stratford-upon-Avon at the Royal Shakespeare Theater. For those of you who remember my Merchant post, be not alarmed, tonight was much better and offers a happier review. For the final excursion of the summer, we went to see Midsummer Night's Dream. Since the last play I saw from the RSC lead to a ranting blog post, devastation of my all time favorite character and a mini tangent in my midterm essay, I was cautious and curious when the lights went dim.

To my surprise and delight, my overall feel for the play was a positive one. It was a 1940s era mob scene in what looked like a large warehouse for the opening act and then it took off into the woods to create a land of fairies with chairs hanging from the ceiling. I enjoyed the overall feel of magic and mystery and completely loved the suave actor who portrayed Puck. His outfit consisted of a coat lined with ties, both attached and dangling. He was great. I had only a few qualms with the performance, so I will offer then to you now.

DISCLAIMER! If you have never read or seen this play and care not for reading about it, please jump to the next bold word so you can continue reading what you enjoy. Thank you.

As I was saying,the first was the relationship between Theseus and Hippolyta. In the opening scene of the play, the relationship was cold and one-sided, as it should be. Since Theseus won Hippolyta against her will and stole her away from her home, she should loathe him. Yet since its typical in this certain play for the actors who play Theseus and Hippolyta to also play Titania and Oberon, there was some overlap of character emotion. My issue was that the actors' time as the fairy kinf and queen carried over into there human role and Theseus and Hippolyta ended lovey-eyed and kissy towards each other which I thought was very off. No one wants a man who says "I won thee by doing thee injuries". Not appealing.

My other qualm was with Hermia and Helena. For some reason, the plays I have seen this summer have all of the females, no matter what her written part, as either crying or crazy. In Midsummer, Hermia is supposed to be a little fire ball. "Though she be but little, she be fierce' is not on all of those pink t-shirts in the gift shop for nothing. In the opening scene when she is given the choice of marriage to Demetrius or death, instead of being defiant for her love Lysander, she is weepy like a lost mouse. Disappointing. And then you had Helena, the mental case, love-crazed redhead who ran around the stage with wide eyes and fumbling feet. Now don't get me wrong, it was very entertaining, but I'd like to see at least one strong woman now and again. Despite the critiques that I will always have to offer, I thoroughly enjoyed the play and am thrilled to have seen 3 live Shakespeare plays in England. And on a random side note which I hope you find humorous, my new favorite word is 'alack'. Thank you, Nick Bottom.

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So next I must sleep because it has been a long day and a bigger day follows tomorrow. My last weekend in Cambridge is upon me and we have our program talent show and pizza party tomorrow evening. Should be exciting. Before that though, more homework must be done!

Until tomorrow, or today I guess, Cheers.

Wednesday, August 10, 2011

Routine Wednesday

Greetings friends,

It was a lovely sunny in Cambridge today, good weather to clear the mind and take a walk. Nothing too exciting to post today as it was another day of work and classes. I'm very excited to go to Stratford again tomorrow. We'll be seeing A Midsummer Night's Dream and I am very anxious to see of the RSC does another wacky interpretation.

Tonight is more of the routine I've easily fallen into while studying in Cambridge. Dinner, homework party with the girls and then off to bed. Since this is our last weekend in England (sad face) the plan is for a fun Friday and then Saturday and Sunday doing school work with some punting happening whenever it gets sunny. Until then, I'm alternating between my 3 final papers/projects, kicking butt and taking names. Bring it on Shakespeare and Oliver Cromwell. Bring it on.

Cheers.

Tuesday, August 9, 2011

For My Dearest Sarah Bradshaw

To all of you reading this who are not Sarah Bradshaw, let me explain briefly. When I began my most recent poll my friend Sarah said she was going to wait until I posted all of the wife facts to vote. Seeing as it is the last day of my pool, I told Sarah it was do or die. To refresh her memory so she can make a completely informed and educated decision, here are the previously told wife facts.

Cheers.

Katharine of Aragon was married to Henry VIII for 24 years. From coronation in 1509 to 'anullment' in 1533

Anne Boleyn's motto was 'the moost happi'. Ironic, huh?

Jane Seymour's brother Thomas, an English nobleman during Henry VIII's reign, married Catherine Parr, Henry's last wife, after the king died.

Although she is the least appreciated of the wives, Anne of Cleves got the best deal. She was given Richmond House, servants, lots of jewels and outlived him by a good 10 years. Snaps for Anne.

Anne Boleyn and Catherine Howard were 1st cousins on the Howard side. Sadly, they met the same fate: execution for adultery

In her life, Catherine Parr was married 4 times together, making her England's most married queen

Walking and Writing

Hello,

Another sunny lovely day in Cambridge town. I woke up and went for a walk today to find some places for my Dad to stay when he comes to visit next week. I have come to the conclusion that Cambridge is full of cute B&Bs. Lucky for me, it was a great morning for a walk.

After a quick lunch of bread and cheese, it was off to Shakespeare class to discuss A Midsummer Night's Dream. We had our second oral quiz which was scary and informative. Next it was on to two different film versions of the play which were both rather comical. I feel like no matter what, when you put Shakespeare on film it will always have an air of humor. Once I was handed back my midterm essay (happy grade) it was tea and some more writing before dinner.

This week is rather ordinary in the manner that its lots of work, the same stuff every day. This weekend is my last full weekend in Cambridge so the girlies and I plan to mix studying with fun. This Saturday we will punt! Until then its back to the grind of two essays and a presentation.

Cheers.

Monday, August 8, 2011

Manic Monday

Busy day busy day! Lots of reading and writing as I head into finals week in Cambridge. Please excuse the briefness of my post but I do believe I gave you plenty to read yesterday about Scotland.

Today was history class and reading Shakespeare for class tomorrow. I now have all three finals assignments and they are as follows:

1. In-class exam for history which includes source analysis of early modern texts and two essays written about a monarch, ruler or theme of the class.

2. A final essay for Shakespeare class discussing an aspect of performance from a list of topics (I have it narrowed down to four as of now).

3. A final presentation for Shakespeare class where I choose one of the 4 plays read and and create my own adaptation including dress, setting and key scenes.

Needless to say, I have plenty to do so bear with my posts and vote in my poll!

Cheers.

Friday, August 5, 2011

Being hip in Edinburgh

Being hip in Edinburgh

Greeting from Scotland! Sorry it has taken me awhile to publish this, but I'd have a very busy past few days. but alas, here is the long awaited Scotland report.

The bus ride (about 7 hours) to Polluck Halls in Edinburgh was long, but we took a nice detour to Abbotsford to see Sir Walter Scott's house and take a walk around the gardens and see the shelves upon shelve of books( although they were currently our for preservation purposes which was sad). Once we got to Edinburgh Julia, Sarah, Caiti, Lisa and I found a great Italian place that gave us a discount for being students. I have missed pasta and veggies greatly. On our way back to the rooms, we walked the end of the Royal Mile so we were fully prepped for the next day.

My room in Polluck Halls in very nice, I have it as a single but there are two beds and I have my own bathroom which is lovely. Its comfy and works as a good place to sleep while I spend the rest of my time exploring the city.

First thing on the agenda Friday was a visit to Edinburgh Castle. This castle had perhaps the best view out of any of the monuments or structures I've seen so far. You could see every inch of Edinburgh fro each different look out atop the castle. We ventured inside and say Mary, Queen of Scots apartments as well as the crown jewels. It was neat to see a different style of royal living. In England, all of the palaces and places of importance are more refined in style, with clean cut stones that are light and ornate. Edinburgh Castle however, had towers of dark stones, still rough like when they were found. I enjoyed the new vibes. After that it was time for a nice walk down the Royal Mile, which is a road that runs from Edinburgh Castle to Holyrood (pronounced 'hollyrood') Palace. The Royal Mile was packed with restaurants, pubs, and more cashmere and lambswool scarf shops than one can handle. It was a sight, especially since this weekend played host to the Fringe Festival which offered many group handing out fliers in weird and vibrant costumes advertising poetry readings, musicals and raves that take place all over the city. One of my highlights for the day was that Caiti and I finally found a henna shop. A woman of Indian birth who lived in Kenya had a tent set up and we each had our left arms painted. It looks very cool and facebook pictures will follow shortly.

The Military Tattoo was a fantastic event. Right outside of Edinburgh Castle a large stadium was set up with a wide space between the two sides. It was a bit chilly because we were all seated outdoors, but the performance was amazing. It consisted of different groups from different countries playing everything from bagpipes to trumpets on bicycles. There was a Scottish group, a Brazilian group, a Dutch group and an English group as well. Apart from the music, there was Highland dancing, a bit of comedy and a Shetland pony. the light effects displayed on the castle were wonderful too. All in all it was very nice show.

Rainy Saturday was a much mellower day with Caiti and I going to see the Royal Botanic Gardens. It was a trip figuring out Edinburgh public transportation, but we managed to get to the gardens and it was so worth it. We wandered around flowers and trees for a few hours, seeing Chinese water plants and a waterfall as well. One of my favorites was a small cottage in the Queen Mother garden which on the interior was lined completely in sea shells and had a ceiling made of pine cones. Even though it was a rainy day it was beautiful on the gardens. That evening it was a pretty chill night. We met up with Sarah and Julia, had a nice dinner on the campus grounds and had a fairly early night in preparation for the ride home on Sunday.

Sunday dawned rainy as ever as we traveled back to Cambridge. I managed to sleep most of the ride so I was ready to do oodles of history reading once back on campus. Sunday evening we found a reasonably priced Italian place, had a nice dinner out and went back to homework. Scotland was a fun trip, exciting weekend, but I am once again happy to be back at Caius.

Cheers.

Wednesday, August 3, 2011

Eyes on Edinburgh

Today was a trying day. Lots of classes and things to do and running around and now packing so unfortunately my post will be very short tonight, my apologies. Tomorrow morning I head off to Edinburgh at 8am so I will be away from blog for the long weekend, but fear not I'll return on Monday to share with you my Scottish tales.

Until then, Cheers.

Tuesday, August 2, 2011

The Merchant of... Wherever You Deem Best

It was another tired and busy day today. Most of my morning was spent fussing over my Shakespeare midterm essay, being nit-picky and reading it again and again.Once I finally printed and passed it in, it was a bit liberating knowing both of my midterms are now complete.

In class today after discussing All's Well that Ends Well Dr.Hartle gave us information about our final presentation. We each have to pick one of the plays we read and in 10min share with the class how we would perform it in our director shoes. Basically, I could set Merchant in the Tudor court if I so desired. I most likely won't do that, but gotta get the creative juices flowing somehow.

After class it was tea time for the day then Caiti, Julia, Sarah and I went out to do some errands, the post office and H&M, before Caiti and Julia had to come back and get all dolled up for High Table tonight. After dinner it was more reading for history tomorrow and a very brief brainstorm for my Shakespeare final.

One more day until Edinburgh, eyes on the prize!

Cheers.

Monday, August 1, 2011

London Post Script

One item that I did not include in my all-consuming London post was that of the driver we had on our coach in on Friday morning. Not only did he drive our coach and point out important sites to see on the way, he also offered a rather delightful color commentary to the sites in London. He marked fairly extensively on the new structures being built for the Olympics and why they picked such a lovely neighborhood surrounded by trash and thieves. He told us that the government says there will still be use for the new buildings after the Olympics and the coach driver wholeheartedly agreed that that would make very nice parking lots. Perhaps his best line was in reference to the difference between a Scotsman and a Yorkshire man- the Yorkshire man is just like a Scotsman with all of the generosity squeezed out. To say the least, it was a nice coach ride with out sit-down comic heading the way.

All Academic

Today was all homework with a side of classes. From breakfast to tea time I worked and prepped for history class which today was a debate over Oliver Cromwell. The two sides were based on republic or monarchy. Basically, while Cromwell was Lord Protector of England from 1653-1658, was he a tyrant acting in a king's stead, or the leader of a group of counselors who began the first commonwealth in England. I was assigned the side of the debate that claims he was in fact in a monarchical position, not republic, so I read textbooks, e-books and the Oxford Dictionary of National Biographies to help win my case. The debate was fiery and fun and both sides presented well. Good times.

Apart from that, I have a midterm due for Shakespeare class tomorrow. My chosen topic is based on this quote, "A play read affects the mind like a play acted" to which I am saying, false. I plan to use my experiences at both Stratford-upon-Avon and the Globe to prove my point further. I had two completely reverse reactions to Merchant and All's Well so this should be a nice, argumentative and hopefully persuasive paper.

Lots of work and lots of class, but Scotland this weekend so I'm working towards a rewarding goal.

Cheers

Sunday, July 31, 2011

Miles upon Miles

Hello all,

I am quite tired and overloaded with work to complete so today will be short and sweet. We walked to Grantchester Orchards for tea today, where Virginia Woolf went when she visited Cambridge. The walk was long and after 2 days wandering though London my feet were quite ready to sleep. It was a bit overloaded with bees and even though I was told to be calm and they would leave, I just couldn't get over 5 bees swarming my face. Water and scones were lovely nonetheless.

The rest of the evening is reading, writing and researching for class tomorrow and Tuesday so Sarah, Julia, Caiti and I are buckled down n my room for a long night of being productive.

Cheers.

Saturday, July 30, 2011

Mind the Gap

Hello all! Have you missed reading my daily blog posts? Does your life feel void an empty in my absence? If not that much, I hope you have missed me a little, because I have missed writing As of 11pm Saturday night, Caiti and I stumbled into the porter's lodge weary from travel, yet very thoroughly happy. Two full days and one night in London done so here is a run down of my adventures.

Early Friday morning the group left for London, arriving by 10am with a full day ahead. The night before, Sarah, Caiti and I mapped out everything we wanted to do, planned the times and the travel to get there. Ambitious? Effective. Friday was packed with sights to see, but we traveled timely and well and I can now say I am very well acquainted with the Tube. The London Underground, once you have a footing in locations and line changes, its quite nice to ride. The best part of riding the Tube is perhaps the continuous mantra of 'mind the gap' you hear each time, many times, you hop on and off a train. The gap refers to the space between the train and the ground and only once have a\I seen a gap that could actually cause an incident, but you never know.

I'll give you some details or highlights on each of the thing we say Friday because if I were to describe everything in detail it would take for more time than I have to give. First was St.Paul's Cathedral. We only did the outside because admission was steep and our 2 for 1 deal didn't apply. Very pretty though. Next was off to Trafalgar Square for some pictures and the Portrait Gallery where we say a special exhibit, 'Glory of the Gods', a picture tribute to Hollywood stars from the 1920s-1960s. After that is was on to the National Gallery to see some beautiful 1700s-1800s era art which was magnificent and offered more that we had the time for. On our way from the galleries, we stopped to say hi to Big Ben and took some pictures. We then minded the gap again and walked around the Tower of London then over the London Bridge. We had a few hours to kill before the play so we did a bit of meandering amongst the London shops.

At 7pm Friday night I watched my second live Shakespeare performance: All's Well that Ends Well at the Globe Theater. For those of you who may remember my last review blog, don't fear. This play was wonderful. The Globe was great, our group was seated in the upper gallery so we had a great view of the stage. It was set in traditional set and costume and the actors were great. Before the play they came out and greeted the groundlings (people who paid less to stand for the show)and opened the show with a song. The live play came to me much more appealing than the written one. The Countess was my favorite portrayal and even Bertram, who I despised in reading the play, came across as more of a human being which was refreshing. At the end of the play, when Helena and Bertram are happy and with child, in true Shakespeare form, the pay ended with a full-cast jig. Awesome. I went away feeling much better about Shakespeare.

Since it was still early enough at the end of the play, the Sarah, Caiti and I, plus Jeremy, Jess, Julia and her fiance Matt (who we all got to meet while he was in London, which was very nice)went to grab a drink before the girlies walked tiredly back to the hotel room Sarah had graciously let us crash in. It was all soft pillows and fast dreams after a long day on the pavement.

Saturday dawned bright and early and we were out by 11am to see Buckingham Palace in all of its crowded glory. After a few pictures amidst crowds of tourists and a walk through Hyde Park, Caiti and I left Jeremy and Sarah in favor of Hampton Court, one of Henry VIII's palaces. It was initially Cardinal Thomas Wolsey's home- 1,000 rooms and more acres than I can count. Once Wolsey began to fall out of favor with Henry, he gave his stunning residence to the king (originally set away from London because it was the healthiest place around London). Since then, Hampton Court had been preserved in all of it's Tudor glory, and I had stepped into a dream. Walking down the corridors Henry and his advisers, wives and servants walked was almost out of body. Caiti and I visited Henry's apartments along with William III and Mary II's rooms (they resided in the palace later on in history). Each room had a story and in Henry's case, each wife (minus poor Anne of Cleves) had a piece of design inspired by them. Two of the women were even married to Henry there. I was like a kid in a candy shop taking in each room, kitchen, garden and chamber. Please see facebook for the whole album I have devoted to Hampton Court. Caiti and I had busy day getting there, but it was totally worth it. 'My obsession' as Caiti calls it, is largely fulfilled.

A few train rides, lots of walking and a transfer, I was back to jolly Cambridgeshire and excited to see my bed again. It was a crazy, busy, loud trip but London was a blast and I'm so glad I was able to spend it with a great group of friends.

Thursday, July 28, 2011

Ringing, Headless Chicken

Good evening to you all. Its 8:30pm here in Cambridge and I am sitting down for the first time today. Since I'm off to London tomorrow, I'm trying to get many things done here before I leave. I went from class to tea to errands to Great St.Marys church to dinner to after-dinner-London discussion and now I am finally able to sit and breathe for a moment.

I have two decently large deadlines academically next week so once I get a bit more done in each of those I'll feel better on the other side of my trip. I have a debate on Monday and Shakespeare midterm essay Tuesday so that shall be lovely.

One note for the day is today we were able to get a demonstration in Great St.Mary's Church (just across the street from Caius) about how the bells are rung. It was quite fascinating, very loud and offered a great view of the city. I'll have some pictures on facebook this evening.

Since I leave for London tomorrow at 7am there will be no new post from me until at least Saturday night when I return (sad face). I do promise to bring back with me lots of pictures and stories to share about exploring London.

Cheers.

Wednesday, July 27, 2011

No Nuts, No Bolts. Just Roses and Daisies.

Hello all:) Today was a busy day for me with places to go and things to see and do. After breakfast I took off on my own for a bit around the college and town. I have completed my Henry VIII midterm essay and successfully printed it which was such an exciting feeling. I even asked the porter for a staple to make the pages official.

After I was done being a writing hermit, I went to the market to grab some bread for the next two days. There was a 3 for 2 deal on mini ciabatta so Caiti and I will enjoy that with our cheese for lunch today. The man at the bread stand is quite friendly, and when I got there he was helping a woman from Sweden select which bread she wanted. She kept asking "No nuts in this? No nuts?" to which the man replied "No nuts and no bolts either" then he turned to smile in my direction. After the Swedish got her metal-free bread, the man decided that since he spoke with the first woman I was entitled to a bread-buying conversation. We exchanged pleasantries of hometown and length of stay to which he told me the eastern US was very pretty. I concur.

Once I had my bread and did some reading, it was off to history. Today in class after we handed the professor the small piece of our souls that is the midterm, we had a field trip.Today's class was on iconography and how portraits and symbols of monarchs would affect their rule. We visited St.John's College next door which was built under Henry VI by Margaret Beaufort, mother to Henry VII. The front door was fashioned with daisies, the flower that represents her, the red Lancaster rose, vines to show peace and plenty and the coat of arms. A coat of arms for a woman would be in the shape of a diamond, and a man a shield. I've decided I want my own symbol or coat of arms so when I get more ideas I'll keep you posted. Katharine of Aragon had an orange pomegranate as hers which was pretty spiff. We also went to King's College chapel and Trinity College (done in Henry VIII's time). Overall it was a nice reward for finishing my midterm essay.

After class it was a quick cup of tea then off to a lecture about theaters in Shakespeare's time before our trip to London and especially the Globe this weekend. Until then though its dinner time and then lots and lots of Shakespeare reading in prep for my quiz tomorrow(!) and laundry, which is a must. Just have to keep my eyes on the prize- a weekend in London!

Cheers.

Tuesday, July 26, 2011

Foots and Ends

Hello and happy Tuesday. To those of you In the States, there is still a decent amount of Tuesday left, and I do hope you enjoy it.

My Tuesday was quite normal as weekdays go. After breakfast it was off to the library (with Caiti and Julia) again to review the second draft of my Henry VIII midterm. I felt pretty good about the content so I decided to get formatting out of the way. As it turns out, when I wrote my bigger-than-the-earth Poly Sci paper and was introduced to Chicago-style notations last semester, knowing how to do it came in handy. History papers, and professors, like footnotes and end notes. I can do footnotes or end notes. The second time around with a 5 page paper is much easier to cite than the first time, 19 pages. Go figure.

In other news, Shakespeare class went very well. We discussed last week's performance of Merchant in Stratford and watched a film that did a much better portrayal of Portia and the court room scene. Surprisingly, the class was pretty divided in opinions on the live play. Either way, you either loved it or hated it, no inbetween. I still vote that they did Portia a major injustice in her portrayal as Southern Barbie.

I received my first written grade of the term so far for my first Shakespeare essay (A-) which makes me quite happy since I'm a rising sophomore taking a 700 level (technically senior level) course. Nice. Now I am off to my next play, All's Well that Ends Well, in preparation for a quiz on Thursday. That along with finishing up my midterm essay will make the rest of the week a bit crazy, but I have a beautiful weekend in London to look forward to.

Cheers!

Monday, July 25, 2011

Dining with Dumbledore (and the likes)

Productive day! Or at least, that is how I fancied my day to be. Being a Monday, its bound to be a fairly icky day, yet I chose to embrace my inner Ginwala and be an organized, planning, working fiend. I woke for breakfast at 8 then after a quick shower headed right over to the library to get a full working draft of my Henry VIII religion midterm. I was close, the main paragraphs and argument are present, just need to write a conclusion and finish the introduction. Success. (Yes, I tend to write my introductions last. You get a better feel for the paper, trust me).

After a good spell in the Caius library, Caiti and I went to the market to get our supply of bread for lunches this week. Baby ciabatta was the choice today and it was delicious. Like every week day I don't have class until noon so once I hit my room it was off to...surprise, surprise, more Henry VIII research! Religion wise, he was a pretty interesting character. Set in one belief yet switching to another, possible for power? Essay topic? Yes.

After tea at four, we took a group picture in front of the Gate of Honor (which we will not be able to walk through because we aren't university grads) and for the first time in my life I was not in the front row! We did a sitting row, standing row and then stand on chairs row. I got to stand on a chair:) It was rather lovely.

After that, Caiti and I (along with Michaela, Nate and Caitlin) prepared for our dinner seated at the esteemed High Table, where we dine with the professors and program staff. Since its a classy event, I put my hair up and wore a nice maroon dress with gold earrings (in case you were wondering. I assume some will take more interest in that detail than others). The table set at the front of Hall on a raised area of the wooden floor. Basically, its like the professors' table in the Great Hall. I'll be dining with Albus and Miverva tonight.

High table was more formal than usual regular dinner, but it was very enjoyable. I sat across from Gail Kelly (Event coordinator), Dennis Britton (UNH English professor) and Cord Whittaker (Medieval specialist/ UNH English professor). We talked from everything ranging from our majors to common mispronunciations that Americans make to French actors playing goblins in Harry Potter 7.2. All in all it was a very nice way to get to know the teachers and staff better and let them know a little more about me. On a side note, my table manners flourished as I was served fish for the 4th time this trip and ate 3/4 of it (go me!).

One down, two to go for High Table trips and I'm ready for more. Currently I'm in the library with Caiti, Sarah, Julia and Jess knocking off some work for various midterms and essays due in the next few days. To close, here is a quite shout out for my Dad- my midterm paper is tedious and complicated and I'll be working hard at for the next 2 days. Now your envy meter can drop half a notch or so:)

Cheers.

Sunday, July 24, 2011

Oh Henry

Sunday, the relaxed Sunday again. A day of paper writing, library time and so much Henry VIII. My midterm paper answers the question "Can Henry VIII be considered a Protestant?" I say no, but to hear my full reasoning see the completed paper due this Wednesday at 2pm.

Other than writing, Caiti, Julia and I got pasties for lunch and did some walking through the town because today was warm and sunny and perfect for walking. I spent a few hours in the library reading old books that I'm not allowed to check out, but are full of great info for my paper.

Dinner in Hall was nice, turkey and veggies, which ended with "The Queen of Puddings," a dessert that had the look of watery oatmeal, the taste of warm fruit and a white, fluffy topping that looked like a crown. I tried it, but not my fave. Tomorrow we have a group photo after tea and then my first spot at High Table with the professors. I get to sit in the elevated part of Hall, dress up and dine with the elite of the program. Should be a good time.

Saturday, July 23, 2011

Canterbury Tales and White Cliffs

Hello friends,

I have decided that on days I take a large amount of picture (basically my excursion days) I'm going to do a little blog post and you can all check out the commentary on my facebook albums. Tonight's album is "Dover and Canterbury" so enjoy!

Friday, July 22, 2011

Its Friday, Friday

Hello all,

Today was a rather laid back day. I slept in after getting to sleep at 3am after the show and spent the rest of the day working on my history midterm essay in the beautiful Caius library. Since its Friday, Caiti, Julia, Jess and I decided to treat ourselves and we went out for some wonderful pizza. After a brief spell in the Buttery we were treated to random fireworks the next street over (for a graduation apparently) and now we must go to sleep because we are early to rise to head to Dover and then Canterbury tomorrow at 7am. Until next time, cheers.

Thursday, July 21, 2011

The Merchant of Vegas

It is 1am England time and I just got back from my first live Shakespeare performance at the Royal Shakespeare theater in Stratford-upon-Avon. It was about a two hour drive from the college, so I had a chance to enjoy the view of rolling greens, cows and sheep. Once we arrived in Stratford, I saw for the first time real English tourism. When walking a town completely dedicated to Shakespeare (his birthplace, death place, house, wife's house) one would expect lots of busy visitors bustling around noisily just like you see in America. It was not the case. The streets were hushed in a sort of respectful reverence, even in the prime of the day. I must say, I was impressed.

After an hour or so of free roam, the group met back up for a pre-show talk with Scott Handy, the actor who was going to play Antonio in tonight's show. It turns out, Scott is a former student of the professor who's teaching my Shakespeare class this summer. It was fascinating listening to Scott speak of adapting to roles, levels of audience interaction and how hard it is after weeks of rehearsal to really make yourself believe what is happening on stage. perhaps my favorite quote from him was in regards to his character, Antonio, and how his director wanted him to interact with the other characters. It was to be "like a watercolor in a world of oils," which I thought just beautiful.

Then, at 7:15 Julia, Caiti and I gathered in the theater and were greeted by a full Las Vegas set. Tonight's show was set in Vegas, with full on American humor. The costumes were lavish and contained everything from feather boas and fishnets to tourists with mismatched plaid outfits. Each actor brought on a different version of an "American accent" including Scott (Antonio) who told us he was assigned 'standard American'. The stage changed from slot machines and tables to a game show setting (when Portia was playing pick-a-casket to find her new husband)to a prison holding room, each set wilder than the last.

As far as a review for the show, I was not a fan. It was crazy and wild and in pursuit of making something that was already a great comedy, more humorous. It was almost as if the director were simplifying Shakespeare for the masses to understand. Being a traditionalist, if I had come into the show thinking of it as its one entity and not Merchant, I would have enjoyed it more.

The final nail in the coffin on my dislike of the show was the total nightmare that was Portia. Not only was she portrayed as an air-headed, southern bell with no real stamina or wit of her own, she ended the play spinning in a circle, crying and holding her blond wig in a manner that should have landed her in a straight jacket. I may be bitter, but Portia is supposed to be a strong, female heroine. That is what Shakespeare intended, not a silly girl who ruins my favorite line in the play by chewing gum loudly and grabbing herself.

To spare you more of my rants of the ruining of my favorite female role ever, I'll leave you with this. Today was an adventure full of learning and puzzlement and I am oh so anxious for my next play coming up in the near future.

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

To be continued!

Sleepy day for me today, but I managed to get up for breakfast and present my piece with Caiti about the Northern Rebellion in 1569 in northern England. Fascinating stuff, I promise. Since my professor was at the queen's garden part yesterday, I had back-to-back classes with a quick cup of tea in between. In Shakespeare today we went over Othello and I was able to grab some final notes to put into my first essay which focuses on antagonism in Shakespeare and the different levels/redeeming qualities of it. That will be completed before the morrow!

On a totally random side note, I enjoyed my first broccoli and hummus (separate courses, of course) at dinner since I've been away and it was fabulous.

Following dinner we had a meeting regarding our weekend excursions. Tomorrow afternoon we'll travel to Stratford-upon-Avon to see The Merchant of Venice put on by the Royal Shakespeare Company starring...Patrick Stewart as Shylock! Very excited to see my first live Shakespeare performance in England (and of my favorite plan, nonetheless). Sir Patrick Stewart is a lovely bonus as well.

Saturday will be a big travel day to Dover and Canterbury- white cliffs and archbishops galore. Stay tuned for the next episode to learn more of the exciting adventures in Dover and Canterbury.

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

Lazy, Hazy, Crazy Day of Summer

No class for me today! I got to sleep in, relax a bit, and then spend the whole day doing homework. My Shakespeare professor had to attend the Queen's garden party today (jealous), so its postponed until tomorrow. I have my second presentation for history tomorrow and ts a group project on the Northern Rebellion in 1569 in England. Caiti and I got a lovely sequence of events together and just need to complete our visual aid (a map and picture time line) before we print. Two presentations in one week is a bit much, but now I'll have completed my speaking section of the class which makes me very happy.

I took a walk with a few friends after dinner and we got into a conversation with one of the porters about accents, both here and in the States, which was neat to hear from a native perspective, even though he is originally from Italy. Now I must attend to draft 2 of my first Shakespeare essay before I retire for the evening.

Since Mike decided to share some laughs and send me Rebecca Black's new single, I'll be singing it for the rest of the night. Glad to know you are a woman now, Rebecca. Cheers.

Monday, July 18, 2011

Presenting, Othello

Hello hello,

It was another rainy day in Cambridge, good for reading and writing at my desk. For most of the morning, I did some final prep for my presentation. 5 in the class presented our early modern woman of choice, which for me was Anne Boleyn, and all did quite well might I add. Not much to report other than the effective utilization of the material. It was neat to see the different record of history from different authors and perspectives in the Oxford Dictionary of national Biographies. For example, the account from the Katharine of Aragon's historian to the one of Anne Boleyn.

Besides class and some errands, my day has consisted mostly of reading Othello in preparation of an essay due later this week. I've never read Othello before, but it seems to be catching my attention much less than the Merchant of Venice. Maybe its because Merchant is my favorite Shakespeare or I just don't care for the plot, but its just not doing it for me. Either way I know my topic for the 1500 word essay, which is all that counts.

The rest of the week will be quite full for me: another presentation on Wednesday of the Northern Rising in England in the 1500s, paper comparing Othello and Merchant, and preparation for my midterm paper regarding the religious beliefs of Henry VIII. Sounds intense, yes? At least its on topics I thoroughly enjoy. My labor will be rewarded at week's end when we travel to Stratford-upon-Avon for a live performance and then Dover and Canterbury over the weekend.

Be mindful and work hard for the rewards will shortly follow!

Sunday, July 17, 2011

Lovely List

Breakfast in Hall, tour of Cambridge on a double-decker bus, the epic end of a decade (even though mine ended in 2007, but that's okay), book reception at Heffers (official book provider for our program), dinner, homework.

I'm quite tired today and I have a bit of reading to do, so in lieu of a full blog post, please see my latest facebook album, "Cambridge Town" for full detail of the day's events. Today we'll try some visual learning, just to mix it up. You may wonder why I even bothered to make this meager post at all today? I felt so good about blogging every day and didn't want to throw off my groove.

Cheers,

Allie*

Saturday, July 16, 2011

Library Processional

My first Saturday in Cambridge has proved relaxing and productive. I woke late and embarked into the rain to find brunch. After ducking in and out of shops looking for food, the end result was Pesto Pastries where I had a pasty and latte for brunch. The pasty was basically a calzone-shaped pastry, filled with everything from Thai chicken to lamb and mint. I played it safe and went for the vegetable pasty and it was quite delicious. It reminded me of a pot pie all folded and neatly wrapped.

After a nice meal, I spent my first hour in the magnificent Caius library. The space is beautiful with rows and rows of books and small nooks along each wall for research and study. After I found my primary source for the early modern woman presentations and headed back to the JCR (Junior Combination Room, the main space for the UNH program). I then proceeded to nestle into a window seat and pound out five pages of notes for a few hours.

Maybe an hour or so into my study time, I realized there was a wedding happening in the Caius chapel this afternoon. Not only were there flowers overflowing from every doorway, but women in posh, English fashion as well as vivid, Indian saris walked around in rapid pace before the ceremony. The bride wore a stunning white sari and her groom a neat, dark tuxedo. Although there were to loud parties and elephant processionals, the bridesmaids looked lovely in their bright blue saris and the flower girls precious in matching, ivory dresses. It was a nice break from the life of Anne Boleyn.

Friday, July 15, 2011

Tatties and the Forbidden

Today was a sleep in day. I'm still not adjusted to the time zone so last night around 11pm Caiti and I were wide awake, dancing around my room. Since we missed the 7am meal (ew), we walked down Trinity St looking for a nice place to have brunch. We happened upon 'Tatties' and I have an omelet and Caiti, Cambridge sausage. Not an everyday occurrence, but we shall revisit.

History class was good again today and I was assigned a presentation on an early modern woman from English or Scottish monarchy. My lady is Anne Boleyn and I am very excited. Some of you may know the fascination I have for Henry VIII and his wives, but for those who don't, I like Henry VIII. For this project I have free reign, with the only requirements being a 5 minute presentation and 750 words. Awesome. I'll explore her early life, her religion, and her obvious influential power over Henry all the way to her accused crimes that brought about her beheading.

In other news, the opening banquet was this evening. It began with an exciting social time on the forbidden grass, which was very much anticipated. No one is allowed on the grass in any of the courts, so tonight was comparable to eating ice cream for breakfast; you know it would be awesome, but is severely frowned upon. The formal affair was complete with candles and waiters during a lovely 4 course meal in one of the college's special halls.

Thursday, July 14, 2011

Love's a Pound of Flesh

Hello loves,

Today was another "typical" day in Cambridge, if that even exists for me here, with the daily routine I've easily fallen in to. Breakfast in Hall at 8, walking the streets until 11 and then some good reading and studying before class (I am a student, after all). Firstly, as you can see from my greeting, I've decided the British way of referring to friends or even strangers as "love" is rather endearing and I plan to exercise it for the remainder of my time here. After being called such by the man who exchanged my money and the girl at breakfast who I passed the OJ to, I decided to follow suit.

Moving onward, I read The Merchant of Venice for the second time ever this week and enjoyed it as much as my first go. My main draw to the play is Portia, the main female character who is one of Shakespeare's strongest female roles. To those of you unfamiliar with the play, Portia uses wit and courage to save her husband Bassanio's friend Antonio (the merchant of Venice) from having to surrender a pound of his flesh for not repaying a loan he went into so Bassanio could properly court Portia. The first time I read it was through younger eyes, sophomore year of high school. It was enlightening to analyze it now and see the cruel humor between father and child, petty revenge of wives to their husbands and complex relationships among friends.My initial reaction of admiration for Portia as a women saving the male lead has now been tainted. Her reason for being so bold may not have been out of concern, but as a way not to lose her husband to Antonio, of whom her husband publicly declared he "loved more than his life, and the life of his wife." A friendship above all else. In summary, it was both refreshing and astounding, yet still Portia remains toward the top of my list of favorite literary characters.

I tried salmon in Hall tonight (Sorry Dad, still not a huge fan) and socialized in the Buttery for awhile then ended the evening with Caiti, walking around Cambridge on our first warm night here.

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

Bread and Pudding

My days seem to be setting into a schedule which is lovely for my organized mind. Today was much of the same, breakfast at 8 followed by exploring for the morning and early afternoon. Caiti and I wandered back to the open air market and purchased some delicious, local bread. Sun-dried tomato ciabatta and tuscano sourdough came back to Caius with us and will serve as lunch for the next few days. Since we only get dinner and breakfast in Hall, we're going to supplement bread with vegetables, cheese, or olive oil each week, making a nice, cost-efficient meal that can be easily repeated. Conservation of funds is essential.

Apart from tasty bread, I had my first history class today (Monarchy, Politics and Power from Henry VIII to Victoria) where after an ice-breaker game and introduction (which included 30min of 'complete the time line of important events') we sped through 400 years in one hour as a "brief overview" to whet our appetites for the class. from The English Reformation to the insanity of George III, my pen hand was aching for relief. The class is going to be fascinating though, and I'm excited to focus in on certain events individually. Also, the fact that tea is directly following class puts a nice finish on a lecture about British history (even though it wasn't common in England until the mid 1600s).

After walking through the courtyard in my first Cambridge rain shower, I was off to dinner in Hall. One item to note for dinner was that dessert this evening was bread and butter pudding. Now I don't mean the pudding that comes from a box and jiggles around in a bowl, I mean real British pudding. It has the consistency of either a half-baked cake or overly-syruped french toast. It was eggy, full of raisins and lightly sugary on its crunchy surface. Topped with a canary yellow custard, the palm-sized dessert was complete. It wasn't my favorite item so far, but I was the only one at my table to even try the dish. But hey, how can you not each British pudding while studying at Cambridge? No well-cultured student would pass up a chance like that.

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

Merchants and Moor

My first day in Cambridge has been rather mellow and informational. Breakfast in Hall was fairly early, leaving me with 5 hours until my class. Its a cloudy and cool day outside, warm enough for shorts, but a sweater on top for sure. After walking around the campus area I've spotted a few places I'll be frequenting during my time here. A large open air market is just around the corner and full of good. Spices, fresh produce, royal wedding paraphernalia, your basic market array. Along with a coffee shop, bookstore and Thai food restaurant, I'm a happy girl.

The rest of my first full day was pretty relaxing. My first Shakespeare in performance class was today and I had a 9 person group taught by Dr.Hartle, a true Shakespeare expert with a full arsenal of British humor and literary references. We focused on the first scene in A Midsummer Night's Dream with particular emphasis on identifiers Shakespeare wrote for his audience. To put it simply, if you were at the Globe watching a new Shakespeare live on stage, how would you have any idea who the people were and what was going on? You'd look at costume which gives you the characters status, as well as names they call each other and lines that set a time frame or introduce an urgency. Odd as it may seem, it was fascinating. The first full plays we dive into are The Merchant of Venice and Othello, a new one for me.

Afternoon tea was short and sweet, then the Buttery and dinner in Hall followed. I'm not sure if I mentioned it, but the Buttery is the in house pub where we all meet to socialize and wait for the official call for dinner, prompt at 6:30 sharp. Tonight was mellow again with a walk around the city, finding more hidden gems and jewels to visit again in the day time. I was able to skype with Mike this evening, afternoon for him, which was a lovely way to end my first full day here. Now its on to reading the Merchant of Venice (again) for Friday's class and then onto, once more, some much needed sleep.

Monday, July 11, 2011

A Plane, a Coach and a Taxi

Hello and greetings from Gonville and Caius College in the lovely and historic Cambridge England! I'm finding it hard to contain my excitement because this day has been a whirlwind of fast-paced action and lots of public transportation. My flight to Cambridge was perfect: departed at 11pm, entire row to myself for sleeping and an early arrival. Customs was as enjoyable as ever and then I was on a bus, Cambridge bound. I haven't visited this country for quite a few years now and I admit I forgot how beautiful it is. The narrow streets are lined with flower encrusted shops and a range of cuisines from Italian to Lebanese. When the city limits were breached, it was mile after mile of green grass, tall fields and blue sky.

As exception as the view was, I still sat on a bus for 3 hours after a 6 hour flight before a 5 minute taxi which finally placed me at Caius (pronounced "keys", if you care to know). "Happy to arrive" is about as big of an understatement as I could give you. Once inside the Gate of Humility, at which all students enter, I passed under the Gate of Virtue to sign in and it was official. I had arrived as a Cambridge student. Next, it was a run to the room, watching Caiti's luggage tumble down a narrow and winding stone staircase, a 4 o' clock tea-and-info session, a tour of the campus and then dinner in Hall, which was truly a room straight from Hogwarts.

Cambridge is an exquisite city and I'm anxious to explore it further, but for now it is organization of room ( in which I have more shelves and drawer space than I know what to do with), prep for Shakespeare class tomorrow and some much needed sleep. Until then, here is my first bubbly and happy blog post from England.

Monday, June 13, 2011

Welcome!

Welcome to Caius for Cambridge, an inside look at a summer in the United Kingdom. In this blog, I'll be documenting my time and experiences while studying at Gonville and Caius College (pronounced "keys") in Cambridge, England. I'll give you the Reader's Digest version of how this all came to be so as not to bore you with details that are really only exciting to me. Last fall my dear friend Caiti and I went to a study abroad fair and stumbled upon a booth advertising the UNH English Department's six week summer session in Cambridge, England. Sounds like fun, right? We sat on the grass in front of T-Hall on a sunny, fall afternoon, daydreaming of England in summertime. Many emails, applications and questions and discussions later, I'm booking a flight into Heathrow.

Living on the college's campus, I'll take two courses: Shakespeare and a history of British Monarchs from Henry VIII to Victoria (!). As if this isn't experience enough, I'll travel all over the country. Dover, London, Canterbury and even a weekend spent in Scotland. For all who decide to read my lovely journal, I'll be providing everything from my daily happenings in class and on campus to the humorous stories and incidents that are bound to take place. I leave for England on July 10Th so until then, I hope my background picture of Gonville and Caius found via Google search can satisfy your intense desire to live vicariously through me. Thank you.